My life has been really shit again for quite a while now. I can't sleep, i try to go to sleep, but just lay awake feeling angry and in despair. I can sleep if i drink, but...

I go for Psychoalylitic Psychotherapy every week now, it could be raising unchallenged beliefs to the surface which cause anger, which i then struggle to transform or transmute. I feel totally disconnected from the human race, like an exile wandering alone banished from society. My life is losing meaning to the extent of where i find myself looking for reasons to maintain it. I've fallen a long way from where i was. I feel ashamed of my failure.