Hi,
I only just read your post about depression (just joined yesterday). When I was in a big black hole during my cancer I was on medication and some counselling, the pills made me worse and so one day I went on line and purchased "The Power of The Sub-concious mind" By Dr Joseph Murphy.
It was written around 1933, but its just a brilliant book and turned me round within a couple of weeks of reading it. I threw away the pills and finished with the counselling. It may not be the answer for you, but it may be worth a try. Get it from Amazon, about £2.99 or similar. If you have any problem let me know.
Cheers
Zenrunner.