Sometimes words are inadequate...
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Sometimes words are inadequate...
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Thankyou. It really helps to see it written down and know that your not alone.
Your replies are meaning full.
Whatever the question is you will never find the answer in the bottom of a bottle. Oh, and alcohol isn't wise if you're taking anti-depressants. You can end up on a three or four day "downer", especially if you have a few days back - to - back on the pop. Keep your head up Trev and hope to catch up with you sooner rather than later
Poacher turned game-keeper
I hope tomorrow is the start of some genuine progress for you, Leaf. Depression typically takes a long time to get to grips with, but you have to start somewhere.
And I will join in RTS's "group hug" for Stagger. Reminds me a bit of the Book of Job: bloke who has everything, then loses everything; chapter 3 is an amazing rant where he lets all his suicidal feelings hang out. [Unlike Graham Breeze, who recently quoted 22 verses of the Bible in full on another thread, I will leave you to seek this out for yourselves.] I found this so refreshing when I discovered it, at a time when I was feeling a bit down.
All the best tomorrow Leaf
I know what that feels like pal. Weds of last week i was having panic attacks on the half hour for 6hrs or so. At the peaks, all i could do was stare into my toolbox and identify the thing that would kill me the quickest; stanley knife, long terminal screwdriver etc. I just needed the security of knowing there was a way out of i needed it. What stopped me, and has always stopped me, is knowing that i'd be letting down 2 or 3 key people in my life. There's always someone who'd have to suffer the rest of their lives if i gave in, someone who would never forgive me for not picking up the phone and just ringing. I've regularly in past weeks found myself stood at the chopping board, not chopping broccoli like i should be, but just staring at the knife. Get enough sleep aswell, your brain needs it to repair.
Luke Appleyard (Wharfedale)- quick on the dissent
Thanks Luke.
The bit I want over is the divorce and this year.
Self harm is not on my agenda at the moment.
Thinking about you Leaf, hope all goes well.