I know I don't always give it my all mainly because I can get a 'zen head' on at times when I drift off into the rhythm of running and suddenly realise that I've run a mile without thinking about it and I literally do tell myself 'get a move on, you're in a race'. I also find that on longer races I sometimes hold back at the beginning because I worry a bit about whether I'll have enough in me to get round if I go at full pelt. Today I ran Commondale Clart after High Cup Nick yesterday and I can safely say that I tried as hard as I could all the way round to the point that I felt light headed and a bit sick at the end. I think it helped that, although I'm not doing our club championship, it was one of the championship races and loads of my club turned out. Normally I am the only woman interested in fell running so I did feel that it was my territory and I had something to prove.