Great post Rainbow. I quit my job & spent 6 years at sea in my late 20s, on tall ships (think russell crowe in master & commander or Bounty-which actually was my ship, the replica that is..) as mate/master, & had the greatest adventures, sailed around the world, but didnt earn a bean. I stepped off the ship in Liverpool, £10,000 in debt, (I borrowed to my way through uni in Sydney where we did harbour cruises). Thing is, I sorted it out, threw myself into a variety of jobs, decided what I wanted to do, threw myself at that. I do believe that the antidote to fear (well, my fear, dont want to preach) is a belief that, whatever it is, I'll handle it/sort it out/do what it takes. I remember a guy at NASA, many years ago when i was young saying "it wasnt luck we got to the moon, we just decided to go there". I liked that.
The memories of those times are special, no money could buy them, but i was doing something I loved. Am in my 50's now, doing work i enjoy, ups & downs as in any job but I'll never regret following my heart, in fact, Im in a better place because of it. I ran as a young man, (400/800mt international/3hr mrthn/BG rnd/3 peaks yacht race, etc) and running again in the hills now is like coming home. Gotta get those memories in place.