Originally Posted by
freckle
Chockstone
I brought gifts, a dream,
above the edge of an escarpement,
unfathomable drop,
I felt the fear and the desire to fall.
Another dream, my naked torso,
huge cavernous omission
sans stomach,
the wind howling through.
After that I saw holes everywhere,
In the numbness of his gaze,
In our ever dwindling bank balance,
The constantly mediocre landscape.
A pleasant vertigo followed.
At the theatre constructed of bamboo
I gazed at the distance
between my seat and the stage
My cells dizzied with the prospect,
of descending into multiplicity
buffered by a hitherto unknown ally
Resilience.
Dreams were becoming reality
A luminous hood in november rain
Began to unpeel a tender carapace
Which gathering momentum
Sent me, crashing and banging
reeling with awareness.
Landing with a bump into uncertainty
The chockstone unlodged,
it got ugly, I think...
I got ugly.
I wasn’t expecting that.
But now, after the machinations,
I catch glimpses,
here is the centre of myself,
a stillness forgotten.
Tonight my mother found some poems
written for her when I was a child
“you were always writing poems”,
I had forgotten completely,
it was a relief to remember.