good riddance mr alcohol

[Derby Tup]

Any further news john?

[Carlos the Jackal]

yes. completed a month but Sunday i spent a nice day with her so i had a bottle of wine and we watched Sherlock. when there are good times i have to enjoy every second i can with her, nothing since and no intention but i wished i hadn't bothered, today i hate the bitch.

going to the doctors tomorrow for my depression and help with sleep. hope he signs me off work for a month or two, but i doubt it i haven't that sort of doctor that everyone else has.

[Derby Tup]

How you doing john? Back on the sauce or keeping off it?

[Carlos the Jackal]

hi derby tup,
the news is that i did almost 5 weeks without a single drop, then i had a bottle of wine with the wife one sunday evening. i have to enjoy every second i can with her now and it was a great evening.

since then i limit myself to once a week only, and i have stuck with this. now the bottle live on the floor between drinks and not in my hand. on that day i will have one bottle of wine or 6 330cl of beer or cider, which is only about 3 and a half pints. so well under the limits of the weekly allowance.

now that i am on anti depressents i have started to feel less angry and more relaxed which i find i can sleep much better. so i now feel much better about myself and things for the time being are starting to look up.

[Derby Tup]

hi derby tup,
the news is that i did almost 5 weeks without a single drop, then i had a bottle of wine with the wife one sunday evening. i have to enjoy every second i can with her now and it was a great evening.

since then i limit myself to once a week only, and i have stuck with this. now the bottle live on the floor between drinks and not in my hand. on that day i will have one bottle of wine or 6 330cl of beer or cider, which is only about 3 and a half pints. so well under the limits of the weekly allowance.

now that i am on anti depressents i have started to feel less angry and more relaxed which i find i can sleep much better. so i now feel much better about myself and things for the time being are starting to look up.

That sounds good news john. Glad to see the meds haven't diminished the fire in your belly when it comes to politics mind

[Carlos the Jackal]

That sounds good news john. Glad to see the meds haven't diminished the fire in your belly when it comes to politics mind

thanks. i do seem to get myself into scrapes though. i think it is my style of writing that does it. i do believe everything i write but i do go overboard when provoked. it does cause people to form an opinion of me thats not not me.

[CL]

hi derby tup,
the news is that i did almost 5 weeks without a single drop, then i had a bottle of wine with the wife one sunday evening. i have to enjoy every second i can with her now and it was a great evening.

since then i limit myself to once a week only, and i have stuck with this. now the bottle live on the floor between drinks and not in my hand. on that day i will have one bottle of wine or 6 330cl of beer or cider, which is only about 3 and a half pints. so well under the limits of the weekly allowance.

now that i am on anti depressents i have started to feel less angry and more relaxed which i find i can sleep much better. so i now feel much better about myself and things for the time being are starting to look up.

Can you tell us what you're angry about JTB?

[Grouse]

Yeah, what're you rebelling against, Johnny?

[nikalas]

Can you tell us what you're angry about JTB?

Anger or feelings of anger are one of the classic symptoms of depression... people often make the mistake that depression is just feeling sad where in fact it can be a heightened state of many negative feelings such as anger, fear, sadness, apathy etc... often you don't feel this way about anything in particular that's one of the things that can be so frustrating.

[Brotherton Lad]

One of the over-riding emotions I brought back from Bosnia was frustrated and impotent anger, as I told the quack at the time. Brought on by wanting to do the 'right' thing, but frequently not being able to, or being at a place several hours after an atrocity (it's impossible to be there before, because it hasn't yet happened). 'twas a bit like fighting a conflagration in half a town with 3 mates and one bucket.
Hopefully all sublimated now, I took alot out on a bloke in Edinburgh in '96 who thought he'd have a go at me (just the one punch, but with plenty of feeling).