KK if you think NMNC is being unfair with you I would suggest contacting the race organiser of whichever AL you fancy doing, put your case as you have in your posts, and see what they have to say. I'm certain they will tell you to go away and not enter their race until you have learned enough nav and fellcraft to be confident to run the course solo in most conditions. People aren't being harsh with you, they're setting you straight on some basic precepts of fell running and racing safety - good luck with it and I hope you enjoy your first AL

cheers, Paul