Ye gods, where do i begin? Living with a rat problem for 11yrs stressed me to the point of writing a suicide note; with all the chatter these days about mental health i can solidly say you haven't been depressed until you've written a suicide note. As for my job, which is a dead end, i try to focus on all the stuff i can get for free, such as firewood, the use of machinery, and virtually unlimited stainless steel. If i focused on the bad side i'd go mad quite fast. I found that taking Ashwagandha improved my back, which was hell at one stage, and i take St John's Wort to keep me from getting down.

I still maintain i need a good woman in my life, but they aren't interested in me by and large.