
Originally Posted by
Flopsy
A thread and subject that is very close to me at the moment.
I have hated my career for about 5 years now. I ended up doing a job to pay the bills 10 years ago and then as the money got better and better it became harder to give it up, what with 2 kids to feed etc. So you understand where I am coming from, I am a health and safety consultant and have serious issues about where health and safety has been heading. I am not a risk averse person but the industry is nowadays, so I have to more and more often give advice I don't actually believe in.
For me it's not simply a case of I hate my job and so I can find another one it's a case of hate the career full stop and want to start again. But I'm 40.
I looked at all the 'give it up and do a job I want to do' (working in the outdoors or with animals) options but increasingly found that those types of jobs are very very competitive and very badly paid and frequently require years and years of expensive re-training too.
I know money isn't the be all and end all but a certain amount of money is important to me. House prices are horrendous (especially here), mountian bikes and road bikes and trainers and kit and event fees and fuel travelling to do stuff are expensive when added together. I do quite like to go skiing too. I didn't holiday for 15 years when I was a broke single mum and so I don't really want to go back to that point.
So I am in a sort of in no-mans land at the moment. I gave up my full time, well paid job last September and became self employed as a consultant, technically, just so I could justify on my CV the time out, but I'm not actually doing any work right now. I've just been trying to de-stress and figure things out. I have been lucky my husband could afford to support us all over the last months. But we can't sustain this and I need to be bringing in some money.
I've been offered a job back in the same profession I've done for the last 10 years. But I don't know what to do. I feel guilty about the thought of giving up a well paid career. Not fair to my hard working husband and a sense of failure in myself. Perhaps feeling selfish that I want to be happy in a career when most people just put up with their careers for the money (so my family keep telling me).
Yet the thought of returning to the job fills me with real dread. I don't know if I can do it.
Unless i can think of something else to do with my life I will end up back in that career. But I don't know what else to do and I feel guilty about the thought of giving up a well paid career.
Sorry, just had to get all that off my chest, so to speak.
Well done onelife.