The Boy at war with himself.
Euphoria,climb reach high up into the velvet sky,
Dread and fear even i am not welcome here,
Endless joy i melt into the universe on a perfect high,
Death and decay my course of action is now clear.
Every nerve tingles with unfathomable bliss,
Suicide thoughts eat away my inside,
If only you could feel this angels kiss,
My end is near there is nowhere to hide.
High, low sometimes even i don't know.
By Matt Harmston.
Such a marvelous, loving poem Freckle, thank you. I didn't realise she wrote poems too. Anyway I found this one under her name - very thought provoking!
A Sad Child
You're sad because you're sad.
It's psychic. It's the age. It's chemical.
Go see a shrink or take a pill,
or hug your sadness like an eyeless doll
you need to sleep.
Well, all children are sad
but some get over it.
Count your blessings. Better than that,
buy a hat. Buy a coat or pet.
Take up dancing to forget.
Forget what?
Your sadness, your shadow,
whatever it was that was done to you
the day of the lawn party
when you came inside flushed with the sun,
your mouth sulky with sugar,
in your new dress with the ribbon
and the ice-cream smear,
and said to yourself in the bathroom,
I am not the favorite child.
My darling, when it comes
right down to it
and the light fails and the fog rolls in
and you're trapped in your overturned body
under a blanket or burning car,
and the red flame is seeping out of you
and igniting the tarmac beside you head
or else the floor, or else the pillow,
none of us is;
or else we all are.
Wow. Powerful stuff.
Am Yisrael Chai
Mossdog that is indeed powerful thank you for posting...it was OW i think who introduced Atwood altho i could have that wrong! i have just bought one of her books "The Door" and its lovely...there are so many moving poems on here tonight after the frivolty of the afternoon (ahem....)...that's one of the things i love about this thread, that we can emote via poetry on so many different aspects of human nature and the human condition! great stuff! anyway just before i finish my rant i wanted to mention to you all that there is a "forward book of poetry for 2010" out (all new poets)...i wondered if it would be good for us to get and discuss in the new year or is that too book clubby? If so i'll just buy and post anyway...also did you know that you can join the poetry society for £14 a year...right, i'm going to be quiet now....
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freckle
Regret
To 'have and to hold'
a promise we never shared.
Our love disavowed,
tortured by time,
butchered by circumstance, by duty,
haunts our solitary dreams.
Two lives, two parallel flights through this Hall of Light.
You: a life embracing domesticity, satisfied yet not fulfilled, perhaps.
Me: a life of quiet desperation,
dowsed in sorrow,
waiting for that spark
to light the way to the soothing Lethe,
and the anesthetising blanket of oblivion.
Anon.
Am Yisrael Chai
Blimey, I've only been away half a day and I come back to some glorious choices. I might be doing more reading than posting tonight.
In Oxfam today I found a first edition Francis Thompson from 1897. It smells like its not been opened since then. Here's one that struck me. The last line is one of the finest I've ever read
The lily kept its gleaming,
In her tears (divine conservers!)
Washed with sad art;
And the flowers of dreaming
Paled not their fervours,
For her blood flowed through their nervures;
And the roses were most red, for she dipt them in her heart.