Quote Originally Posted by mr brightside View Post
Really rough few days. Every so often my mind can't cope with the fact that i may be facing a life without any sport. I slip back to defining my own self-worth by whether i can run or ride a bike, and to what extent. I'm really afraid of what could be my life from now on, the level of meaning drops below what i consider to be the lower limit for preserving my life. Loss of meaning had been a big driver for depression in me in the past. Yoga masters refer to this as 'The Monkey Mind'. A restless mind that goes too far and attatches to thoughts that aren't necessarily true; creates stories that feed into self-defeating belief systems. For some reason i'm very vulnerable first thing in the morning, it takes hours of hard work just to arrive at neutral let alone positive thinking.
Some good ideas there from Stagger.

But going back to your problems: you have the diagnosis, and you even seem to know what the cure is, but it is so difficult implementing that cure. The fundamental thing is that your self-worth isn't defined by what you can do; you have intrinsic worth as a human. Getting your mind to focus on that truth is the big struggle, and I wish you all the best in this fight.