Yes, exactly the same for me. I'm a fell-runner at heart, but the only time I can run as a team is in the XC and road/xc relays. Have found myself criticising myself a bit too much after a poor performance on the xc, and also need to remember it's to help my fell-running....

But when you put that vest on, it's hard to look at it as anything other than a race to the death!

I also see it as paying back to my club. I take all their training, coaching, facilities, for a frankly minimal yearly fee, then disappear to the other end of the country to race on the fells on my own, so suffering on the xc for the team is the least I can do.