I'm a bit all over the place again, i need some time. I think my unconscious mind considered this forum a safehouse of sorts; so dispite having voluntarily gone missing for over a year sometimes, now that it's being forcefully taken away forever i seem to be losing my old safe space and going to pieces a bit. It's a bit tiresome, i'm getting nightmares and wake up once a night every night worrying about pretty much anything and everything, but always loss related. Rusting cars and my own death feature regularly. Thankyou for taking the time to set up this app group, i'll see you at a race some time and you can tell me about it.