
Originally Posted by
tri-mind
Life.
Oh i remember the days back in 76,
We would run through the playing catch,playing ball,
Shouting and jumping kicking stones,throwing sticks,
Scrambling up the hill then up onto the wall.
The sun was so hot my ice cream would melt so quick,
It was wonderful i had no cares at all,
I would eat myself silly until i was sick,
Falling down,standing up like a big rubber ball.
But then i was ill i was in isolation,
A big glass box and no contact for me,
Stuck all alone with just my imagination,
Desperately wanting to escape,to be free.
But mostly my childhood was full of fun,
Being with friends and playing football,
Such carefree days out in the sun,
No hint of what was going to call.
I'm starting to change something inside me,
My first real girlfriend such things we discover,
Swinging emotions up and down trying to break free,
Enjoying each others bodies with my first lover.
School work is easy but i can't keep still,
I finish with jo it breaks my heart,
My minds like a maelstrom i 'm not sure if i'm ill,
I flunk my exams don't know where to start.
I'm 17 now just left school gotta good job at B.T.,
Realising something is not quite right i hold my head and cry,
I start to abuse stuff to try and reduce it's affect on me,
Taking things to bring me down and some to get high.
Move on to my mid twenties i meet my wife,
Drinking and other thing for nearly ten years,
This wonderful woman will change my life,
I tell her all about me she has no fears.
We get married on a wonderful day,
All the years of abuse and having to go it alone,
I love this woman in every way,
It's such a great feeling not being on my own.
Working through my troubles i start to cope,
Life's looking good as we have two boys,
It looks like it's possible there could be some hope,
A beautiful family and all the worlds joys.
We go to the doctors prescribes me some pills,
A consultant psychiatrist tells me it's Bipolar,
There's a chance i may cope with my ills,
Then my wife says it's cancer and i console her.
After sometime we are both on the mend,
It's wonderful to have such an angel with me,
A person to be there with me a lifelong friend,
With our love for each other we will always be free.
I have my ups and downs but cope with it well,
It's an honour and privilege and honour to share it with you all,
It makes me feel better to converse with the poets of the fell,
Freckle,Hes,HHH,Mossdog,Derby Tup,Noel and the rest of you all.
By Matt Harmston