Hey Wharfeego. I don't know if you are interested in a couple of books on the subject that have helped me massively in previous years.

Personally, I was never a great fan of 'self help' books as I read dozens and always felt that they stated the bloody obvious however there have been two that just clicked for me and really brought me a tremendous amount of relief. (The one by Claire Weekes, well, I felt it could have been written by me.)

They are Claire Weekes - the latest help for your nerves and The Power of Your Sub-Conscious Mind by Joseph Murphy.

I hope you are ok. I know how awful it can be. Please don't give up.

The latter is available online as a free PDF.