Depression

[anthonykay]

I'd be inclined to help with bofra i think, i could have helped all last season, but it kills me to see people running. Just seeing running clubs out and about is bad enough, i see one every week on the way to Tai Chi.

OK, I can understand that it hurts to see other people doing something that you want to do but can't.

I'd love it if i had a western diagnosis for my hip and knee injuries, everyone who's had a look has drawn a blank, the only explanation comes from Chinese Medicine!

And does the Chinese medic who gave you the explanation have any ideas for treatment?

I can't live a life where i can't get out, i can't see value in it.

What do you mean by "get out"? It doesn't have to mean racing, or really strenuous stuff. Just do whatever you can without exacerbating the injuries. Can you still go walking on the hills above Wharfedale, or on moderately paced cycle rides?

After my son was born, my wife seemed to be suffering from some level of post-natal depression, and I quickly realised that me going off to races or on all-day cycle rides was not going to be appreciated. I settled into a pattern of one or two runs and a short cycle ride per week, and didn't do any races for another 14 years. But I was OK.

I can't see i have a right to consume the planet's resources meaninglessly. I was never made to feel as though i was worth anything as a child, i think this belief system comes from childhood trauma. People have suggested EMDR on the NHS.

So you know that these beliefs of worthlessness are rubbish, and you even know where they come from. Please don't give up fighting to rid yourself of this wrong thinking.