Anger management

[mr brightside]

What happened on Friday Mr B?

Friday was crap. It all started when i was refitting the heater matrix/blower fan box back into the car, after having removed it to test the fan which was fine as i suspected; but the removal was necessary. The matrix enclosure is a big plastic box in the bowels of your car dashboard which all the heater controls are connected to, it's a sod to remove on any car.

During reinstallation i trapped one of the motor wires and it wouldn't pull through into the engine bay because the crimped connection was too large. I dropped the matrix box further down off its studs but it wasn't having it, at this point i began to believe the thing was fighting me deliberately. I tried to yank the wire back through hoping to recrimp the end and be done with it rather than taking the matrix box all the way back out, but snatched at it in annoyance and ripped the other end out of the blower motor too. Realising this meant a full stripdown and soldering iron job my head went; the dashboard got a pounding and now the glovebox doesn't shut, the back door got a whack and now has a row of knuckle dents in the door, lastly i slammed the passenger door so hard that the window exploded into diamond dust. On the way back into the house to turn the soldering iron on i punched a wooden board a few times.

Definitely go and talk to someone... most GP's will be able to sort it out and, from personal experience, just going and talking to someone makes a massive difference. Rage with inanimate objects, increased levels of frustration and lashing out at things are all classic "symptoms" when I'm going into one of my downs/depressive periods. Going to see a counsellor/CBT therapist via my GP really helped get to the bottom of things, let me learn what all the warning signals are and, most importantly, taught me practical steps and measures to take to head off the Black Dog.

Life's too short to be angry... if you were injured you'd go and see a physio, it's no different.

Cheers Nik. The problem with the NHS is they try and shove happy pills down your neck! Some physio for my mind sounds good though.

It's also worth noting that your anger and irritability may be a sign that you are suffering from depression, so I think you will definitely benefit from some input from services. Go and see your gp and talk to them. Read the depression thread on the health pages if anything there rings true just PM people and talk it over with them (if you feel comfortable that is), none of us will mind and we all will be happy to help.

I've been depressed in the past but i think one of the triggers was a crap job, from there everything else just piled on; but now i've got a better job i can self-manage other issues that contributed to being depressed. Cheers for suggesting that CBT thing.

I think Im going to post In my eyes who you are and how you portray yourself to me.
Luke when you posted on the FRA relay thread that you had done leg 3 ( navigating for your club Wharfedale) I was pretty much in awe of how you had described the day. How you had gone on, How you enjoyed it. The whole experience. It made me smile. I shy away from Navigation legs yet you just took it in your stride.
Thats pretty special in my book.
There are many ways in which you can get help and help yourself. Look at how many times Fairyfeet mentions the word YOU.


Luke to me your a person that I didnt know. I now know you a little through the forum and fellrunning. Your a nice honest guy that needs a little help. Like lots of us at times.
Go and seek it, help, support etc.
I hope Ive portrayed how I see you.
When you close that gap between the person who you are and the person you would love to be I think you will have found a special place.
I truly hope your journey goes well Luke
Daz

The relays was one of the best experiences of my life, it was like a drug and left me wanting more, it was like all the mad descents i've ever done rolled into one! Cheers for the compliments mate, now all i need is some speed!

I feel better today. I was looking at the perspex window flexing wildly in the wind going over to Hayfield on sunday and felt really stupid. A bloke came to fit a new window today so all the memories of friday are gradually disappearing, the dents in the door will be harder to shift though. I think repairing the damage i've done could be therapeutic, if time consuming.

Thanks for all your posts, i've digested them all. :thumbup: